Hello New Era

I was at an unusual apex in my life… The ECWF, my home, my sanctuary had gone into something of a renaissance with the inlet of both new and old talent looking to usurp me as the face of a federation I’ve carried upon my back since 2008. I had not held the ECWF World Title in over six months and despite having won ECWF Superstar of the Year as well as ECWF Champion of the year for 2012… the 2013 season had not started with the same vibrant splash of excitement I had hoped for.   This was supposed to be my legacy, my era… Here, I was supposed to be invincible and immune to the stress of pressure bearing down upon me…

But I wasn’t… And now as I began to understand how Jason Spirit felt when I first arrived to the ECWF Along with people like Scott Sillinger and Bobby Peru, I started to look over my shoulder at people who might come to usurp me as the ECWF’s icon. The obvious one was Nate Daniels, the ECWF’s champion. Despite all of my best efforts I have failed time and time against to best this man in the biggest spots. Sure I held a handful of wins over the lad, but in comparison to his victories over me… My wins were forgettable at best. He was a fine champion who was a bit rough around the edges… Stubborn to a fault and with a nagging desire to “do what’s right” despite having a multitude of fault lines of his own, he always tries his best and carries many of the burdens of champion better than others who are less inexperienced. Nate is the perfect example of imperfection and the best point that you don’t need to be perfect in order to be the best

You just have to try harder than the next bloke..  

I admire Nate for some things, and shake my head at others… But for all the good he does and all the mistakes he’s made. Nobody can argue that he’s willing to do whatever he has to do or fight whoever he has to fight. He’s good for the ECWF and the industry, and once he matures enough and starts to understand that this business is a balance of give and take, he’ll be even better than what he is now. That is why I feel his shadow looming over the horizon, I can sense the storm coming and if I don’t play my cards right… He could be carrying the mantra of Icon before I know it

Of course he’s not the only up and coming star in this industry… There’s also a young lady by the name of Alessandra Reynolds… Nova Wonder… She’s the current U.S Champion and up until recently somebody I never really gave much concern over as a threat to my reign here as the matron of this federation. My first real one on one match against this woman came fresh off my return from a near-career ending neck injury, I walked into the match feeling confident

Even Cocky…

I didn’t put much effort into training that week, I wrote this girl off as little more than a flash in the pan whose whole ‘aura’ was really a factor of her ability to utilize social media to her benefit. She was a nice lass who had a bitter breakup with one of my best friends, the ECWF’s resident ‘crazy bitch’ and despite my reputation as a winner… Nova Wonder went out there and gave me all I could handle. In fact I dare say that she whooped my arse, had me on the ropes and should’ve won that match if not for the intervention of the Silver Eagle who for reasons unknown decided to lay the lass out and help me to a win…

One lucky break… I was still better, right?

Maybe Not?

Then came our second match, and this time she was even hungrier and more determined to win then the first time… Granted I was in much better shape and taking her far more seriously, Nova once again have me all I could handle before Alexis Terry came swooping in and helped me to yet another controversial victory… That’s TWO unseasoned wins I hold over a woman who has now started to remind me of a young and restless Lacey Allen from my early days in the ECWF. People were starting to talk like my handle on this federation was starting to slip, I could hear the whispers, and the cracks in my armour had begun to grow as the world outside pelted it with hatred and false judgment. I suddenly found myself on an island… Lacey Allen Vs the World and the World had begun to find momentum. No longer did I have the massive trump card that was my canny ability to incite rage and force mistakes…

I had become “predictable”

And now, I’m only one week away from this BIG match against both her and my darling little sister for the United States Title. The question is whether or not I can keep this little streak going against the Wonder Girl; or if my luck will run up at the worst possible moment and allow her to pick up an unfavourable win to set my hopes of the ECWF World Title Back whilst furthering her own cause toward building her ECWF Legacy? Can I sustain myself and keep my nerves going into this MASSIVE match and earn myself another reign as United States Champion, or would either Nova or Sophie get the best of me and prove all the naysayers right?

Who knows?... 

The only thing I have control of is effort… All I can do is go out there, week in and week out and fight with all I got. I know the fate of Jason Spirit, I watched a man in the prime of his life fall because the pressures of the sport and the desire to be more than what he had to be buried him under a sea of hate and regret.  I’ve seen squandered talent and broken dreams, and I’ll not allow myself to fall victim to the same circumstance… No matter who carries the flag in this federation, whether it’s Jason, Nate, Nova, or even me

I’ll continue to fight… To promote… To do all I can to be the best I can be.

That much is a promise

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But enough of my worrisome bantering about the issues that press me, I would like to be the first to publicly welcome Alexis Terry back to the ECWF… Yes, I know that there is a ton of controversy surrounding her after her last stay here. The way she won the title, the way she left the federation… Many are sour to the amount of publicity she got and the way she seemingly squandered all the things the ECWF was willing to hand over to her. And though I should probably be the one at the front of the line leading the cause against the woman

 
I simply cannot…

Why?... I ask myself that all the time. Why would I feel jot to see her back? After all her arrival here sparked the ‘decline’ of my reign here in the ECWF and I have not held the World Title since she took it off from me. The fact that I lost to somebody that wasn’t even a part of the roster is the biggest embarrassment of my career and the way she left me here in the rubble after her /alleged/ drug bust hurt me more than I can even describe. So why would I embrace her return to this federation when all she’s caused is heartache and pain?

Maybe it’s because I love her?

Love… It’s a weird thing, huh? Part of me feels drawn to this woman because of the kinship we have for one another. There are so few people who really ‘Get me’ like Alexis does. It’s like she’s just as fucked up as I am, she has all the same pressures and overbearing expectations bearing down upon her and she carries herself with the same bravado that I do… It’s like we’re two peas in a pod… Meant to be with each other

Weathering that storm called “Life”

Love… I want to love her with all my heart; I want things to be better //To fall into place// And I can only hope that she’ll explain some stuff to me, tell me what really happened and that she’s sorry… To hear that she’s here for real and not just to build up her bank account… And if she’s sincere enough… I want her too sweep me off my feet

To love me like I want…

Like I need...
Because that’s all we can ever ask for.

This yet another of the MANY burdens I carry on my back as we head toward ECWF Legends… This is the first major PPV event of the 2013 season and I know that a strong showing here could be the difference in my whole year. Burden is a hell of a beast to shoulder, it can make or break a person…

So the question is, will it make or break you

Before it comes for me?

Best Regards,

Lacey